The more you chase a butterfly...the more it runs away!!!

as i was walking to my accounting class...
out of nowhere i suddenly had an epiphany...
a moment where everything fell into place...
i saw couples everywhere holding hands while walking (pa-sway-sway pa!)
i suddenly thought of her.
i suddenly thought what my mother said to me...
if you love never give your whole....
never give your world...
always leave some for yourself...
then i finally realized...i have given her my world
every part of me
my heart, my mind and even my allowance to a point that i am willing to starve to death just to date her...to be with her
and what do i get for all of this...NONE
not even her love in return...
or at least a decency to tell me that she likes someone else instead of letting me stand on a limbo...
i don't blame her...i blame myself
i keep on convincing myself that she will love me...
i have given her everything that i lost even my self-respect...
so i vow to stop this madness for her sake and especially mine...
if we are meant to be...destiny will tell
and i will accept any decision made by destiny...
it may be hard to give up all those sweet moments (sorry i am a hopeless romantic)
but i will do it to cure myself...my unhealthy affection that even affects my studies
before i used to envy couples hugging...kisssing
now i try to question why i envy this people...
there are a lot of singles who are very much happy...
and even though i don't have someone...i have friends
friends to go out with...
to make kulitans...
to support me all the way...
and i would like to thank them for being there for me in my times of "madness"
will...
rabs...
hans...
lauren...
marian...
and most of all...
ray and...
bi...
thanx so much!